Wednesday, August 31, 2005 . 7:00 PM

A YesterdaY i dun wanna forget
unfamiliar faces as i pass by the skool..many innocent n curious faces that i see as i walked in to dis used-to-be familiar place. its been lid abt 1yr..but i could see the many changes.. despite all dis, memories did fade..it sort of filled moi mind...Memories that i would neber neber eva wan to forget!! haha..it was lid a relieve to see mdm sharifah, auntie cheong, miss lee, miss teo..din get to see mdm fong...kees but anyway it was realli comfortable to see dis faces It's lid a comfort zone And of cos i saw moi classmates n sum juniors(at practice..but i din wanna interrupt) kees..so glad
a strange numbness..dumbness..emptiness feel..as i saw all of moi sec pals..
i dunno whY~ why why?? i wan to noe..i prayed to God if he could let me grow to understand that kind of feeling..wasn't i suppose to feel excited and overjoyed and wonderful..
was it my changes tt turned me into a numb-ed monster or something..i realli wondered.. i'm rethinking..n still..but still i dunno wad's happening to me? was it realli me..i'm going crazy thinking of all dis.. I dun wanna put up a smile-ed face and deep inside me a realli crushed pieces of my fragile heart.. or maybe i shud be doing that so that dis feeling of mine is not known until sumone actually like read or like realised that i'm dis empty body moving on w life.. life 's w meaning now w sum friends at skool,not too close but still toking w luff-ter at times..n moi family, always giving me that kind of concern that neber fails to be surrounding me.. i would give up the world for anyone who is worth me doing tt.. dis is it? in life? or rather in MY WORLD!
am i too weak a person..forever waiting for sumone to hold on to me tight enuff.. make me feel imp or something!?!! i noe why pple says tt nth material is imp anymore..even if it is worth a lifetime loads of money.. A friend in need..is a friend indeed. am i too emotional or wad? I've been praying n praying.. Sumbody pls tell me!
being such a forgetful person..dis question may probably fade by, BUT i noe moi heart will neber heal..to a whole.. its cracks n all that is ugly..
See moi ugly side and all...neber the beautiful side!!!!!
wad a long blog i've put..pouring all moi heart n soul n body into all i've written.. i finally took out dis courage of mine..
da courageous me..finally out! =)