Monday, December 31, 2007 . 2:25 PM

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Like very long...to 2008... haha..that's because i woke up earlier...lols
Like 11 leh...that's early..compared to my owl timing..!

Today seems like a fine day! Haha..gonna go have dinner and countdown later with my bestie friends... Although stomach not very well man..but still dinner should be fine ba!

Ya looking good man- 31 dec 2007! I tink i'm loving this day! .loves..loves..loves..loves..loves..loves..loves..loves.
It is hard accepting the new year to come man..2007 has been too quick a year.

Can't quite remember what i've done up til now...big things or small things...good things or bad things...i must be tired..brain cells died-ed at this time of the night or day!

ehm..i must be semi-conscious ba...like kinda know what i'm doing, also at the...i don't really know.

the new year shall be a better...a good one! I surely hope.
I pray for a good guy to come into my life. hhaha...my first first wish for 2008!
Followed by my direction for my future..i really wish i could be clearer of what i really want..and of course blessings from God to everyone who has showered me with endless care and myself. that's all i guess =D

Tuesday, December 25, 2007 . 11:55 PM

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Aren't deceiving myself..No no..can't deceive myself...!
No matter what is happening or that has happened, I'm gonna put them all behind!

I'm not gonna tear over it! but..It's so so difficult! Actually...i don't even know if I can do it. but I'm gonna stop being all pathetic!

I'm gonna be that strong lil ger!
God help me to get through this.

Monday, December 24, 2007 . 5:05 PM

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i've been wondering where have my forward looking to this year's x'mas gone to exactly!! right now, i'm like okie! it's x'mas! but..not feeling like exactly very very excited man...

Yeah, my mummy & daddy have bought like tons of food! but tonight everybody's gonna be either working or celebrating...i'm gonna go church almost like..alone.
i thought i will take all the nice food esp sakae sushi...but i'm juz taking that bit of food, turkey and cake..

praying for all the nice feelings of x'mas to come back..back to me

Saturday, December 22, 2007 . 1:57 AM

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Life is the bed of roses...not just the lovely scent, not just the lovely petals, remb the thorns that pricks...

yeah. i'm hurt inside.. unsure of whether it was real... Perhaps when i'm crying n crying, it'll stop and i forget the hurt for a while.. i know i will..

i get over fast..yeah...most of the time.. i'm glad i am so...
so on the outside, every single day i appear all fine..

of course there are days i'm glad, i'm happy, i'm contented, i'm elated, i'm upset, i'm angry, i'm scared, i'm so silly, i'm so contridicting, i'm so defeated, i'm... i'm all mix feelings but of all, i know i'm all that i am.
Not all pretentious, not all real at the same time.

it's terrible, now that i list about all that i know or think of myself at this time n state of mind.. This is me?

Sunday, December 16, 2007 . 12:38 AM

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Yeah~ it prob would be only this weekend and the coming x'mas mini break.

i'm super tired man. it's major proj, been sick for quite some time liao... its the food poisoning then the flu and cough, but it sure has to heal. I'm always praying for tip top health. ABOUT 1 month plus more! I want to strive for my major project.

Throughout major proj critics, i'm seen to take the harsh words and all. but...i'm really not that strong! I need all the strength to fight against my weakness, that is to tear! I'm close to tearing the prev prev presentation. I'm so glad candace was around, at least i know her comforting words always help me not to give up.

I really am expecting a good good x'mas this year. Let my hair down and just enjoy! Please..please...just nice time for all my friends and me!