Sunday, May 25, 2008 . 5:40 PM

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totally hope so...that when i wake up tmr.. and finds that its still a weekend!

man..probably saturday was a working day for me. Totally hate it! i wanna go out and enjoy..enjoy my weekends properly.

tmr gonna get back to work and start mugging..once more...and 4...hopefully ain't 5 more days to count down to.
i need a new job..looking for one.. and i'm not sure if i should at least stay put till probation 3months man... still in dilema.. i need my path..lord.

I need strength to continue..i need strength to move on and to make my decisions.

Thursday, May 22, 2008 . 12:15 AM

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well..it just might mean that i'm feeling here &there..
yyeah..brought work home to do..but just feel like it man!


Shall just do up a bit..if not tmr..no matter how i ever rush also cannot finish!

rashes is getting much better...but still am scratching.. got a scratch marks all over! i want them out of my body!tinking and still tinking..its about work again..should i continue or shld i switch..?

Wednesday, May 21, 2008 . 12:47 AM

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strawberry shortcake
"I took quite sometime to consider..anyway, i got this because its cheaper!" lols...but its was actually not bad man..the cream din taste so fattening and creamy! looks feminine hor.. but my fave is the coco exotic..!




"family means no one is left behind"

I pray that lord will keep my family together for as long...
no matter how angry we get with one another, we forgive & forget.






my bestie friends!
"thanks for being around, all of you make me a special individual"

"..for better or for worst. friends for life! cheers!












To my dear friends, thanks so much for being around!
"friends that stay very much together no matter where they are." .loves..loves..loves..loves..loves..loves..loves..loves.
21 year 4omins old am i.
back to work yesterday was a total torture. was scratchy..itchy! am feeling totally drain once again..each time i left work..not w any sign of relief that work is over, not that work is done.. always with heavy eye lids and tired body & mind! always and constantly in my mind...reminding myself what i have left with to continue to work on tmr! forever and ever..work is constantly much too tiring me! always wanna ot to finish work..but sometimes when even my other colleague is gonna go off...i really don't feel good to continue..am scared..of alone... but sometimes..am more scared that my work is not done!

am totally aware that i shldn't job hop or not not preserve..but constant work stress has become quite bad..got pretty bad temper sometimes... today..shld be meeting up for dinner at kallang, but ended up eating somewhere nearer.. cry n make a fuss over it..feeling like so dislikeable self...totally hate it..

I pray that god can lead me somewhere, somewhere i can feel work is constantly challenging yet very accomplishing and enjoyable. whereby at the end of each day...i don't always always feel down and dead.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008 . 1:16 AM

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is finally here..am 21 now.

celebration is done. but really am feeling not too good about something..bugging me totally that i can't sleep.

the thing is that i wasn't firm abt telling my bro that his friends shld go..so that my friends that were my buddies...that i really wanna invited that night.. they had to sleep at the living rm area.. i guess we shld habe enjoyed it more if my bro's friends has go off earlier..like really got into games and bunk in the sleeping room.

I noe i really shld not hold it to my heart...but i can't help it!
I pray that lord can help me forget this and that i could make it up for them the next time round!

by the minute, i really am feeling older..it comes w more responsibility and definitely aging, I really am feeling tired abt current job. It's draining my energy off, to endless mountains of work. I hope that i can find another job that i could really enjoy doing.

I pray that when i go to work later in the morning, I can finish and really just finish my job. Pls take away the itch and rashes that are irritating me also.. feeling rather horrible..

it hurts feeling this bad now, shld be feeling like good..it's my birthday anyway..

Wednesday, May 07, 2008 . 10:24 PM

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Boy boy boy...been rusty dusty for quite a while!
hehees.. married to work for exactly a month! today's one month anniversary man..
Just realised....damn sian man..

Work environment is not bad..at least I think I really like working w most of my colleague. They are friendly and funny. But but...my workload is sometimes so deadly...i feel like dying man!

My table is always piled w never ending things to be done..done by tmr, today, next week...so on and so forth...toooo many notes & reminder! too little time & too many tasks!

I'm actually already looking at a job my brother was recommending. It actually is what I have always thought of doing! I wanna give it a try...hopefully... but it feels like bad...work for barely one month...and thinking of another job.. I surely hope if i got the other job...it really is what I love to do!

Many things have happen in fact...aside from this permanent job.. people around me... feels sad man... affected by what's happening...really hope jiaying's mum willl get well, dad will be fine...everyone to be well.

Got to pray..that God would watch over all of us! bless me w more strength to handle my emotion, more strength and ability to finish work faster, more time for family, more time for my friends, more time to sit down and pray.. less worries.. less tire myself... & find time to get away to Australia or just anywhere else for a good break.