Wednesday, May 21, 2008 . 12:35 AM

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21 year 4omins old am i.
back to work yesterday was a total torture. was scratchy..itchy! am feeling totally drain once again..each time i left work..not w any sign of relief that work is over, not that work is done.. always with heavy eye lids and tired body & mind! always and constantly in my mind...reminding myself what i have left with to continue to work on tmr! forever and ever..work is constantly much too tiring me! always wanna ot to finish work..but sometimes when even my other colleague is gonna go off...i really don't feel good to continue..am scared..of alone... but sometimes..am more scared that my work is not done!

am totally aware that i shldn't job hop or not not preserve..but constant work stress has become quite bad..got pretty bad temper sometimes... today..shld be meeting up for dinner at kallang, but ended up eating somewhere nearer.. cry n make a fuss over it..feeling like so dislikeable self...totally hate it..

I pray that god can lead me somewhere, somewhere i can feel work is constantly challenging yet very accomplishing and enjoyable. whereby at the end of each day...i don't always always feel down and dead.